2017 2018

I've been reluctant to write '2017 in review' thing because there are still 6 days to go till the end of the year and in 6 days everything and anything can happen that could totally change how you remember 2017 (and I hope something amazing will still happen just because it can)

It has definitely been the year of the "New Normal" but I have to say 2017 has been quite good to me. It was also probably the year that I've been the most productive (quantity-wise at least).

So grateful for so many things in 2017, my freedom, my family being healthy and well, all the amazing people I've met and shared time with and all the experiences, and so much more - all which I learned (or, am still learning, not sure) not to take for granted!

2018, Onwards and Upwards, Happy New Year!


GoSee Awards (I won!!)

I’ve just learned that I won the Public award at the GoSee Awards 17, yay! It’s in the Screenings category which is for the whole portfolio (other categories are Portrait, Fashion, Nude, Architecture etc etc you can check all the winners here. When I got the email few weeks ago that I made it into the finals I was so happy and overwhelmed that my work made it into the top 20 portfolios and that I was in the company of all the other amazing finalists, some of which I’ve already known, both their names and their work and also some of the campaigns they did. I’ve been following GoSee for many years now, since I discovered them while I still lived in Europe. GoSee is in their words “a unique community of top creatives, attracting far more creative enthusiasts than those in the advertising industry alone. GoSee sets visual benchmarks and forecasts international trends”. As a finalist I was invited to attend Update Berlin, sadly I couldn’t go due to the engagements in NYC (and I have to admit that made me a little sentimental about my ‘past life’ in Holland when it was so easy to just ‘hop’ to Berlin, Paris or London at any time and just for a weekend)

This award is also special to me for two other reasons, one being that I’m not winning too many awards, and just one of the reasons for that is- I am not applying for them. And the reason I’m not applying that often is because after doing what I do for so many years now and having spent hundreds and hundreds of $$ to apply for various awards, exhibitions and such, I feel like there are a lot of instances that are just taking (financial) advantage of the‘emerging artists’ with all those open calls etc (you know those who charge you something like $60 to submit, than they keep spamming you with email reminders to submit and keep extending their deadline several times?) Well GoSee is not one of them (and there are also a few more, like Hasselblad Award for example).

The second reason why this award is extra special to me is that it is in the Public voting category, and I think my friends who voted for me contributed a lot to me winning this, and having friends who support you and your work is an award by itself, actually it’s the most important award! I am beyond grateful to have those kind of friends in my life, you know who you are and I love you<3


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Linda & Linda

Do you also find that the name of the person you meet tells you something about them or what you could expect of them? (based on your experiences with the people with the same name or based on…whatever lol) I know this is not scientific but it works for me 90% of the time! And according to this (subjective) theory, the women whose name is Linda tend to be these amazing creative inspirational women who are unapologetically themselves and are also fun and kind and I tend to just click with them. I had a pleasure of spending time with two of those in the last two days so this name thing inspired me to mention them here and show my appreciation for Lindas!

Linda Nagaoka is officially the first person I met in NYC who was going to become my friend here- I met her a day after I just arrived to NYC to start my 1 month residency at Point B in 2014. We both attended Meredith Monk’s workshop that weekend and were both living in Williamsburg at the time. If I had to describe Linda in 2 words those would be : Art Life (title snatched from the movie about David Lynch) and that is not something to be defined or restricted by the medium, which Linda is certainly not. You can check out everything that she’s doing here. We got to collaborate on a performance piece called Insomnia (for which I did the video part that you can see here)  together with Erika Kapin (who did the music part and is also an amazing photographer and my 2nd ever friend I met in NYC who deserves to be written about separately) and that was so much fun- I have such great memories of this and I hope we get to do something similar soon! 

Also another thing about Linda Nagaoka that just blows my mind- she holds this Karate belt (not sure which color exactly but it impresses me nevertheless) and she can break those boards/bricks, whatever they’re called, I’m so proud of her for this! It was her birthday yesterday, I had an amazing time at her party and I’m so happy to call her my friend!



When I first met Linda Troeller just recently, I had no idea who she was- I just noticed her beauty and her unassumingly sophisticated and quietly elegant idiosyncratic style and presence and wanted to talk to her because she just fitted into my new project idea and I wanted to ask her to be a part of it. I had no clue that she was this famous photographer and artist and really- a New York City legend! (and I’m glad I didn’t know because that would have made me too intimidated to talk to her and I would have never met her) who spent 20 years living in the famous Chelsea Hotel. We all have read and known about Chelsea Hotel, but I never thought I’d get to hang out with someone who has been a part of that history. Atmosphere: An Artist’s Memoir of the Chelsea Hotel is one of the many books she published, and you can read more about it here in the New York Times or Resource mag articles about it. Linda Troeller has travelled the whole world both exhibiting her work (also with Nan Goldin etc) and as an educator- check out her website here for all the upcoming events and workshops! I’ve just had a wonderful day strolling around East Village with Linda- and our photo shoot turned into this performance art piece when suddenly all those kids from the neighborhood school passed by- Linda just stayed cool AF as she is by default! So happy to have met you Linda Troeller!


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Vogue Italia/Photovogue

A lot of people who follow me on social media (even some of my close friends!) got to think that I've been working and shooting for Vogue Italia, so here I want to 'demystify' that: I often post photos that were published in Vogue Italia online, and I always stress 'online' and 'Photovogue' : Photovogue is this amazing platform founded by Alessia Glaviano, (Senior Photo Editor at Vogue Italia and L' Uomo Vogue, Editor of Vogue.it and curator of the video interview series "Vogue Masters"), where all the photographers can sign in and make their profile and upload photos, that will be assessed by Alessia personally and also co-editors Chiara Noninno (who btw has one of my favorite instagrams and you should follow her- I have no idea how she finds all this crazy shit, I love it!)  and Francesca Marani- if the photo is approved it will show up online under photographer's portfolio on the Vogue Italia website. It doesn't have to be a fashion photo- it can be any category (like portrait, documentary, landscape etc etc) and I've been constantly encouraging all my photographers friends and acquaintances to submit! 

Just to add a little personal note here re: my history with Vogue Italia: In Dec 2010 Vogue Italia had it's (I think 1st ever) Portfolio Review in Milano- I immediately signed up, booked my flight and hotel, printed out my photos and was so excited about it- the night before my flight, The Hague is hit by an unimaginable blizzard, everything is covered in snow, my ride to the airport lasts 4 hours (!) instead of normal 40 min, but it doesn't matter anyway because all the flights are cancelled and I end up not going, and continue to lament  over my ill fate that prevented me form becoming the next Vogue Italia star. Little did I know that 3 years later, I would make it to that same portfolio review in Milano, and get totally destroyed by Alessia lol I mean that's how I felt,  she was super nice and constructive and helpful, but I just didn't want to, couldn't, hear what she was telling me. It took me months to recover from it and start shooting again. 

Looking back, that was such a valuable experience and Photovogue continues to be that for me. For people not familiar with the current photography scene, Alessia Glaviano is not just the editor of a (major) fashion magazine, but one of the top relevant names in the international contemporary photography world - to have your photos assessed by her constantly week by week is practically a free long term mentorship, and how great is that?? 

Thank you  Photovogue  for keeping me motivated and helping me grow! 

And you can see my Vogue Italia portfolio here


Bushwick Open Studios 2017...

... have taken place this past weekend and what a great weekend it was! Very happy to have participated for the 3rd year now, and I had this piece in the official group show and opening party at Beyond Studios  ! Was great to finally meet in person Cory Rice  and Suliya Gisele who also had their work (that I just love!) in the show.  My friend and awesome make up artist Irina  came 'all the way' from Upper West for this and she loved Bushwick! On Saturday among other things, I finally made it for the 1st time to Bizarre Bushwick to see the Creepy Clowns show by Meryl Meisler - I loved the venue, it's definitely on my radar now, and seeing or hearing Meryl is always so uplifting, she's just so... genuine! And a great photographer with a great energy and personality! 

I ended my BOS2017 weekend at the crazy closing party at House of Yes and my heart was full as I got to see the folks from Arts Letters and Numbers  who were visiting for the weekend from Upstate NY (they are the best and check them out,can't wait to go there again some time this fall/winter) 

And last but not the least, for all this I have to thank to Arts in Bushwick ! Thank you for the great weekend, for being so inclusive, and for publishing this little interview with me in your blog! And also for asking the question "If a movie is made about your life, who would play you?" I've been thinking about it since forever and couldn't wait for someone to ask! And the answer is - Kate Beckinsale!